jasonito

So, I found out something about myself... I had a realization that the world isn't that bad of a place. Sure, world hunger is still there, Ethiopia is still under famine, BP still isn't doing anything about their mishap, little girls are still being sold on the black market in Thailand and the global economy is still shitty. I'm here though. I have a beautiful daughter, food in my fridge, my bills aren't late, I live close enough to my work that I only have to fill up once a week and my car's paid off. I found out that all I have to do is hold my hand out and I have someone who's there for me. Be it some anonymous person or some long lost fam

I had an epiphany tonight. I wasn't meditating, searching for potato chips that look like Jesus or even suicidal... I was actually staring blankly into my computer screen. I had this strange realization about where my life is going. I'm in my 30's, single father, humdrum job and I have this huge... lack of motivation. I need to get a girlfriend, I need to relax more; not like getting high more often, but actually resting my mind and listening to myself BREATH. We spend more time holding out breath each day than concentrating on doing the opposite. My mind has been cluttered with finances, job stability, keeping up with the Jones'. Fuck them a

When you bring a child into the world, everything can either become clear or your life can turn into chaos. You hear of people meeting at the beach, in a club, the laundry mat or the grocery store, which is why I should have known it was a sign when I met her at a funeral. We hadn't known each other for 3 weeks before we found that I would soon be a proud father and somehow, I was happy. All I wanted was to have legacy. A child who would be happy to see me when I return from work. Someone who would depend on me and who could be consoled with my words. So, when momma was pregnant, there was the normal mood swings, tantrums and cravings that I